I realise now that
I never knew what being unfocused or
not being able to focus looked like.
But I know I consciously attempted
constantly
to not look like that which
I didn’t know how it looked.
So then how I acted
and looked
was defiant.
Children are pure.
I didn’t want to be defiant or in
discombobulation with
people and things.
Everything being nice and smooth
was all I ever wanted;
satisfaction.
But I didn’t fit.
I realise now that
I can only want to focus
on one thing at a time.
And only I know
inside
what that thing should be.
This operating system
is one of grace.
As it
eventually
leads you to the
will of focus –
awareness of Truth.
I realise now that
I am healthy as
“It is no measure of health
to be well adjust
to a profoundly sick society.”
– Krishnamurti